drummingintomysoul

inspired by the mockingjay

bustin' a move

yes i am dancing up a storm alone in my house to miike snow remixes. and it is awesome.

get into the groove

...boy you've got to prove your love to me.

lol.

not really. but it's a good song and i'm trying to 'get my groove back.' no more facebook, the false reality realm. if i'm going to be online, i should be writing, reading, exploring...not just wasting time. (no offense if you enjoy facebook - it is definitely not a waste of time for everyone. but i was wasting my time). pictures can be posted here. thoughts can be shared here. i can be here instead. so here i am. happy thursday :)

the sun is shining and spring is showing its cute little face. peeking out behind the chilly wind and winking at us. hopefully spring is friends with rain though-- we don't want her to disappear for too long! she's been quite the tease this year. but oh such lovely days lately. i went on such a wonderful hike/run this weekend and had the moon at my back and the sun leading me along the path. it was incredibly beautiful! i wore my new (beloved by me and loathed by my fashionable friends) toe shoes and scaled the mountain (i am exaggerating here) like i was spider(wo)man. it was exhilarating!



this weekend i will be with my grandparents. my grandfather is battling the physical and emotional pains of cancer that is throughout his body. oh how i wish positive energy and love could heal. but i hope it can help, coupled with quality medical care. i bought him a bansuri flute (indian) and i don't think he will be able to play it, but he loves flutes and maybe i will just play it for him. last year during the holidays (2010) the family went for a stroll in downtown claremont at the local farmer's market. here we are just laughing and being silly as we always are... i love his sincere smile and it warms my heart to see his happiness here. i only wish that he becomes pain-free and can enjoy life now. now is all we have.

taut remain the strings of my heart

tension threatens to snap them apart

when plucked right they resound

quite unnerving yet profound

harmony and dissonance

balance out my existence

which will it be today?

would anyone ever dare to play?

tread lightly on this ground unstable

the finest silk thread disguised as steel cable

or is that reversed?

it depends on the hour

or maybe only

if i give you that power

if you're happy and you know it...

a million and a half layouts completed- awaiting a home.

magical endeavors with kari potter...

fun with a camera and lomo editing...

trekking into dangerous scrapbook supply territories with the bff...

{clapping hands}
i am happy. i just am. and it's nice.

letter to my author...

dear renee,
your blog here. neglected and alone, simply existing. how i've longed for the gentle kiss of a keystroke, the tickle of your thoughts on my virtual pages, the quiet admiration with which you regard me after we've shared a few stolen moments. but alas, here i sit, ever awaiting your return. i beg you to pay more attention to me! fill me in once in a while...all those scrapbook pages you've been mass producing, the new job you are learning, the fun excursions you've been on, your aspirations, hopes, dreams, worries and more... i'd like to hear about these things more frequently please! and i know you need to share... i know you want to!
love,
not so patiently anymore,
your blog.

poem

land and sea
daybreak
waves break
you break
away from me

sky and earth
sunrise
opened eyes
time flies
upon rebirth

fine lines
divide space and time
parallel
the divine

soak up the sun

ice plant. brilliant shades of magenta, purple, royal and magnificent. like a beautifully crafted handmade throw blanket, perfectly draped over the knees of mother nature...the seaside bluffs. toes in the warm sand, sun permeating the threads of the dazzling blanket, delivering vitamin d, facilitating the transformation of light into food. the ingredients that wove together to make this natural blanket upon her knees. photosynthesize. photograph. convert to photo-memory. i want to hold this beauty and peace in my heart.

health nut

today ~

fried pickles + beer, namely "chocolate milk stout" = not so healthy (but oh so good).

tomorrow ~

a power breakfast of poached eggs and wheat toast + a fabulous hike in the mountains of santa barbara = very healthy!

:)

looking forward

i am looking forward to springtime. warmer weather. wildflowers. hikes in lush mountainsides. rain. birds singing. love in the air.

i am looking forward to turning 20. did i say 20? i meant 30. growing up. getting to know myself even better. deepening friendships and family ties. learning, always learning. getting serious? being an adult? yup.

i am looking forward to doing what i am supposed to be doing with my life, my soul. art. music. a creative path. fulfillment. purpose joy.

i am looking forward to love.

:)

top 3 (somewhat impossible)

ok. this is way too hard to narrow down, so i just let the top 3's surface naturally and took the first 3 answers. i like, no love, a ton of music. i make it myself. i live it. i appreciate it. here are a few of my 'random' top 3's... :)

top 3 pandora radio stations:
1. death cab for cutie radio
2. miike snow radio
3. the cure radio


top 3 songs i turn up really loud when they are on the radio in the car:
1. forget you - cee lo
2. little lion man - mumford & sons
3. dog days - florence & the machine

top 3 soundtracks:
1. garden state (oh yeah. very very top.)
2. once
3. twilight saga has some awesome tunes!

top 3 current faves:
1. miike snow
2. patsy cline
3. friends' mixes...does that count?
ok, 3 for real: empire of the sun
please, can i have 4?: the shins or vampire weekend (ok, i totally squeezed in 5!)


top 3 songs i want to learn or am learning on the guitar:
1. falling slowly - once soundtrack
2. hurt - nine inch nails
3. any patsy cline song (simple guitar chords, fun to sing!)

i'm late i'm late i'm late!

turning her face to the warmth of the sun...totes presh!

so. today i will be posting twice due to the fact that i completely failed as a blogger last night. today's first post: animales. (pronounced an-ee-mah-lace). oh my dear shweet little presh love princess! how i miss thee! my poor heart is withering away from sorrow as you reside 20 miles south of me in another house... i miss you the most when i go to bed...how you would always curl up on my chest and drift off into dreams with me. :(

BUT. i know that you are happy where you are living and that you are well cared for. you have sunlight streaming in through windows where ever you turn and you sure love that!

dot-ee-dee-you

i loved my experience as a student at dvc, so i decided to look for work there after i graduated college. lo and behold, there was an opening and i filled it! i've ended up in the admissions and records office...a very high volume and fast paced environment. i love what i do-- i absolutely love helping students. the best part is interacting with them at the service window or in the enrollment lab. the experience definitely has some quirks and interesting moments (ex: "hi. i need help. this form says name. do i put my name here??"), but overall i enjoy this line of work. here is a layout in tribute: "working 9 to 5* sucks." (but it's not so bad if you like what you do!) *i am 8 to 6 anyway ;-)

oh. and it doesn't hurt to have a dwight bobble head at my desk either. question. question. question.

weekend recap.

yes. i actually clicked the dusty "new post" button. (!) thanks to a fun little scrappy birthday get-together, miss mallory, kari and i have a blog pact. everyday this week we will be posting (or roasting, like boom. roasted)! mallory made us the cutest little lists of our daily prompts...so here we go with the weekend recap:

i made a bee-line to my grandparents house, my oasis of love and joy, thursday night and stayed until sunday morning. we shared so much laughter, good food, wine, movies, outings to the bookstore, music, dreams and love. i tried to hold each special moment in my heart, to write it into my soul's memory. i adore them. my grandmother's window prisms casting dancing rainbows throughout the living room, her creativity in art, decoration, cooking, fashion...so inspiring and beautiful. my grandfather's unmatched sense of humor, his constant silly joking, his flirtation with the love of his life, his flute piping, observant interest in our girly ways, just his being. it was hard to say goodbye, but i know we will connect again soon. for now my heart is full.

i got to spend some quick, but quality time with becky, mez and ezra! he is absolutely adorable and i just loved being with all of them. his cheeks are out of control!


sunday was kari's scraptacular bday scrapfest. safeway starbucks, sandwiches (and long lines). eating grandma's homemade banana chocolate chip cake. laughing. listening to all kinds of crazy mixes on the iblast. doin' the dougie. or the jerk. making silly faces and cracking up. laughing!

oh. and busting out the pages (i scrap at an exponential rate).


and then the oscars. oh james franco, you are too cute.
it was a good weekend-- hard to go back to work after such fun! :)
i love my ladies...can't wait to art it up again soon.

on to the next one...

weekend magic

a little summary of the past couple weekends- beautifully peaceful lazy days with family, friends, iced tea, hikes, art, music (in love with my "ray lamontagne radio" via pandora), sliding door wide open to let the breeze and fall sunshine in, kitty cuddling, and just pure happiness.

a special surprise visit

the little bro came to town! we surprised my mom at a restaurant...she was totally shocked! we had such a nice summer evening together. great company, wine, eats and weather...it was fabulous! these are two of my favorite snapshots of the night. my brother is such a movie star :)

and some currents: (thanks lifeLOVEpaper)

listening: miike snow
eating: nada. had a juicy pizza from zachary's with the fam earlier
drinking: i seriously need some water. super. duper. thirsty
wearing: purple tank and running shorts (no running happening at the moment)
feeling: so glad it's the weekend! happy and full
weather: lovely summer evening. slider wide open and fan on
wanting: to sleeeeeep in tomorrow!!
needing: to get some serious exercise this weekend
thinking: love is such a special gift and experience
enjoying: browsing through photos and listening to music
wondering: what the next few months will bring...

it's the little things

woo hoo! cleansing my soul with a little spontaneous crafting, beautiful weather, girl time and some good music! kitty curled up on the couch, door wide open, breeze drifting in, doing art in and outside, listening to genius playlists on itunes, sifting through my scrap stuff for fun, planning out layouts for tomorrow's bff scrapapolooza, thinking life is good, and just enjoying the moments. ahhhhhh.

can everyday be like this?

does monday really have to come so soon?

how can i hold this in my heart through the week?

i will try ;-)

oh. and, super inspired by Tina of lifeLOVEpaper, Cathy of Bits & Pieces, Elsie of A Beautiful Mess, Heidi of Still Me, and of course, bffffffl Kari of Second Star to the Right.

Thank you Tina for "Currents," Cathy for the inspiration to run, Elsie for all kinds of fun crafty ideas, Heidi for awesome techniques, including the little word banner above, and Kari for...well, EVERYTHING. xo

so: "Currents"

listening: ghostland observatory - debating which album to buy on itunes.
eating: having slight heartburn from some garlic hummus and a veggie burger.
drinking: water. me? what else?
wearing: old purple sweats and a t-shirt that says: "it's an earth thing, it's time to understand."
feeling: elated. just spent my day scrapping and enjoying the moment.
weather: perfectly sunny with a little breeze.
wanting: to keep doing this forever!
needing: to go get ready aka cleaned up.
thinking: i wish i didn't have to work monday.
enjoying: the pages i made, and watching my adorable kitty sleep.
wondering: if it's ok that i didn't run today.

yay!

oh. and...

...

friday the 13th

i will:

1. sleep in. snuggle with my kitty. stay inside the warm covers just a minute longer.

2. have a cup of english breakfast tea with vanilla soy milk. open the blinds alll the way to let the morning sunshine in to warm my heart.

3. go on a hike (in new territory) with my mom. pick up the old heart rate. have a picnic. take some pictures.

4. make some birthday cards. two to be exact. oh, and a small scrapbook page for my friend's baby shower book.

5. listen to some good music: i'm thinking blast the joni mitchell 'blue.'

6. eat, drink and be merry with some dear old friends. and i'm talking goooood food (her husband is a super cook- gourmet status). lots of catching up to be had with the girls.

7. read until my eyelids are heavy. 'breaking dawn.' again.

8. fall asleep with a full and happy heart. kitty on chest. sweet dreams to come.

:)